"I want to do better."
I've been saying that for weeks now. Months-
Last night I told myself, "Self. We are waking up an hour earlier than normal. I want to walk the dogs before I make my coffee."
I said I was going to go to bed early too- but by the time I looked at the clock, it was after one this morning.
I sank my head down low and poured myself into bed, later than I ever meant to. It's so funny how that seems to happen- The minute I get out of bed, I long to get right back into it..
but then night time comes along and sleep is the farthest thing from my mind.
I get manic- I get busy- I get over stimulated.
By the time I turn off the lights, I'm nothing more than a puddle of left over energy- and my feet hurt.
I set my alarm and I went to bed with the best of intentions.
This morning, I canceled the sound of the wake up call faster than I could roll over.
All my good intentions were gone and I was exhausted.
But I managed to get up thirty minutes early.
Thirty minutes early is still "early".
I am sitting here telling you- my thirty minutes counts.
I'm sitting here telling myself-
That extra thirty minutes counted.
I got up, I brushed my teeth and off for a walk we went.
and I broke a sweat.
Not only did those extra thirty minutes make a major difference in jump starting my day- but I got the exercise I wanted-
and for the first time in months-
I broke a pattern.
and guess what?
I'm going to do it again tomorrow, too.
Every single day, we are faced with something new.
A new diversity, a new challenge- a new victory.
And every single day- we grow.
80% of the success is showing up-
The willingness to show up changes us. It makes us a little braver each time.
photocredit Adela Hittell